i read something today, it was a girl going on and on about how she wont change for anyone, and no one can make her change, something like that. well im here to say, bullshit.

everyone knows that june 14th 2007 is my own personal d-day. im scared to death. msotly because, high school was the best thing that ever happened to me. the four years ive spent at overbrook have been amazing. why do i dread graduation? simply because im scared to death of change. im scared of it, i dont ignore it.

change is wonderful. ive experienced love, heartbreak, intelligence, stupidity, stress, boredom, fun, and sad times too. they've all contributed to the wonderful person who stands before you. we're all growing up, changing, learning. if we didnt change for other people, we wouldnt change at all.

sure i change for other people-by choice. its the wonderful people who've entered my life that have changed me. thats the amazing thing about people! they have that ability! its wonderful!

so i tell you, dont have that attitude. dont shut people out because theyre different, or simply because they challenge who you think youve defined yourself as at 15, 16, or 17. change! its the best gift you can give yourself.

anyway, tomorrow is auditions for the fall play. im a little nervous. so i decided to type my feelings away in a journal entry. this thing is such amazing therapy.

oh and p.s.
HAPPY HALF BIRTHDAY TO ME

cause time makes you bolder...

first day of school was thursday. it went pretty well, and im really excited for senior year. my scheduale worked out swimmingly, without any major sacrafices, which is the first for me.

first period is ap english with mr marceano. it seems like its gonna be an interesting class to say the least. my summer reading book was written by a woman...that might have been a mistake. lol. second period is ap psych with mr ford. im so excited about that class. thank goodness mr ford decided to stick it out one more year. third period is overtones. its so big! theres so many people in it this year, but im really excited about it. we should be good. fourth period is genetics/oceanography with ms derito. oh dear. she is a peice of work. its gonna be an interesting class, but very amusing. fifth period concert band, and im so glad that emmy and coll came back. maybe i wont hate it this year! sixth period is hr world history. its me and a bunch of juniors i dont know. im the loser who sits in the back of the class all by herself. but ms cam is halarious, and i love her already. seventh period theatre. no comment. eighth period gym. score! finally, no more scond period gym. afternoon gyms are so much better.

friday after school, a group of us went to palace diner for lunch. probably one of the most random groups ever, but we spent two hours just talking and laughing. i love that diner. then justin and i went to the dollar store, got some posters and markers, and went to the soccer feild. we watched the boys varsity soccer game, and the varsity field hockey game. theyre so much fun! i dont know why i didnt do it before! so of course i went home and immidiately put all of their home games on my calendar. lol.

saturday was my first all-state practice. i hate it. its a room full of over 100 snotty bitches who all think theyre better than everyone else. woo-freaking-hoo. i was at the school at 7, and didnt get back til 3. it was a long day.

but now its sunday, and im looking forward to a day of relaxation, and mtv marathons. im only on like chapter three of my summer reading. maybe i should get on that.

naaaaaah.

well hello there, little friend

so i've decided to re-enter the world of blogging. i used to have a livejournal for quite a while. but then came myspace, and with it, my journal's demise. so as my junior year ended, i decided to try to reignite the love i used to have for my dear livejournal. we'll see how long this lasts =)

summer's here. that means senior year's close. im not gonna lie, im pretty scared. the saftey net that is highschool is comming to an end. all my friends are excited to start this new adventure, but i just want to stay in limbo forever. i don't want my life to start. i remember thinking as a little girl about college, graduating, getting a liscence, and even just entering high school. well, two out of the four rites of passage are over, and i feel like i've missed it. i've enjoyed every day of highschool, and i only have 180 left. the friends, memories, achievements, and mistakes i've made are all so precious to me and im desperately trying to hold onto them. it's me against time, and time's winning.

last night was our first marching band practice of the season. it's going to be an interesting season. there are four seniors in the band. brandon, justin, steven, and myself. it's scary. my last. this whole year will be full of lasts. oh dear.

jessica said something to me last night that really stuck. we were talking about how im a senior, and she said: